Dilli ki Billi

Its been a fortnight since i shifted to Delhi allowing the city to resettle in my mind and my body after more than 3 years. Every visit in the past 3 years has been a temporary one where destinations were fixed, no re-traveling streets that I did before that. A select few roads, select friends, select activities; everything was selected. I try to pass the buck on to the lack of a vehicle but honestly, the lack of inclination was what limited my own movement. Now the story is different.

My bike is here and I thank the carrier company for getting it to me in one piece. And since my better half arrived, I have been riding. Riding streets and roads that I never looked at for the past few years, going through narrow lanes, riding through alleys, sensing what the capital feels, smells, sounds, looks and tastes like. And there is a shift in what it used to be earlier. I am not too certain about what the city tastes like because I haven't really been eating out. I wonder why! But soon, as I envisage. Its a pleasure to be back in the city that gave me millions of opportunities and mis-opportunities the last time I was here. From knowledge to wisdom to debauchery and decadence; its all here. The difference this time is me; I would like to believe that. 3 years living alone in Pune made me understand that I really dont understand much. And thats quite a relief, honestly. The reason why I left Delhi was to get away from anything familiar. It was difficult to get lost even if I wanted to. Everything was known, familiar or assumed. Sometimes presumed as well. It was getting boring. Or simply, I was so fed up of doing the same thing over and over again. Now I realize that activities that do not add to your essence are useless. Things were being taken for granted. Just because they were available. Pune taught me that not everything is available all the time. Not even people. I often joked that you are not allowed to die between 1 PM and 4 PM in pune because no one would come to you even if you needed help. Delhi gives you everything you need at any civilized hour.

Anyway, the agenda for me in Delhi, this time, is to live. Live in the real sense. For if you aren't living, you would rather be dead. I want to be the dead living working with and for the living dead. But you know what? Al;l this required me to settle down in my own place. AND I need a place which I cant seem to find.

My उन्देर्स्तान्डिंग एंड experiences

Falun Gong (fa - law, lun - wheel, Gong - high energy matter much bigger than the qi) is a cultivation practice of the Buddha School that sees the trinity of Zhen-Shan-Ren or truthfulness, benevolence and forbearance - the characteristics of the universe, as the way to trascend the physical body and the three worlds. The Fa practiced is the highest cultivation practice in the world. Much higher that all yogas and healing practices.

Healing is interferance with the universe- something that has made sense to me now. Healing is trying to interfere with someone's else Karma and bringing it upon us. and All healing practice use the qi or chi etc to supposedly heal. Qi cant heal anything; it can only push the ailment back and it can postpone an ailment only to manifest itself in someother form. It is a very effective way at a low level. The fa talks about very high energy matter called Gong which is developed by and during transforming the cells in the body from their physical state to a devine state; something no yogic or healing practice can achieve. The only other being who had found a way to transform was Aurobindo. Although his practice was very intense and difficult. Moreover the time that he had said it would take was atleast 300 years; impossible in one life time. The exercices and Zhen-Shan-Ren of Falun Gong do the transformation in one life time; provided proper cultivation has been practiced. There is a 50 year old person called Ben Aischa at my place these days who is on his way to the transformation. He is done this practice for 5 years. He looks like a 30 year old man radiating energy. He also shared with me the connection of the fa with the Vedas like i shared with you. The vedic scriptures are the closest to the fa. Krishna in the Bhagwad Gita had explained the connection with the universe and the process of transcending different dimensions before returning to your True self - to be the Buddha body. Gautam Buddha was an incarnation of Krishna.

Quantum Physics today has been able to ascertain the different dimensions scientifically although they havent been able to completely their finger on it. The Quantum physicists have proven that an object/person can be at two different places at the same time and that the past can affect the future in the same way the future can affect the past. The future affecting the past has been unfathomable by scientists till Quantum physics came up. Furthur, this new science has experiemnted with tiny particles like electrons and smaller ones too about their effect and existence in more than one dimensions. What is fascinating is that the thought energy has the power to change the structure of the flow. In one of their experiements where they were shooting electrons through a small gap and further through two gaps, they put an OBSERVER or a mechanical eye to study the movement. The movement of the elctrons changed as if it read the mind of the OBSERVER.

Coming back to the Tunisian guest, Ben has chosen the renounced order of life. I had read his book 3 years back, I am a CON man and to be is my SOLE plan, and was fascinated by his writings. I asked him when we could meet and 2 days later, he was in Pune.

I have been cultivating Falun Gong last 2 years; the exercises and the virtue and although I hadnt been completely dedicated to it, I have had enough experiences with the Fa that have left me completely blissed. The powers of the Falun open the third eye at a certain level where certain supernatural abilities are released to you. Powers are limited depending on the level that you are at. The five exercises are very calm and simple. As Falun is high level Chi Gong, the exercises are gentle and powerful. Its an honour to have Ben here and he is teaching me every waking moment besides kicking my arse from the word, Go! That means vegetarian food, practicing Zhen- Shan, Ren and learning and practicing throughout the day. Starting today, Ben is taking a group of friends and me through the initiation process for 9 days. 9 lectures by the Master who introduced the Fa to the world, Li Hongzhi, and the exercises are being revealed. The nine audio lectures are channelled by the Falun installed in his body and start the initiation process. I have been through these lectures before and felt various sensations while listening to the lectures and reading the books, Falun Gong and Zhuan Falun.

Slowly but in rhythm, I am being exposed to a few realities of my own body and the mind and the feeling is one of emptiness and hollowness. The first time I felt this way in the last month and a half made me very uncomfortable. Uncomfortable because the feeling of being blank is usually regarded to be one of being dumb by the ordinary people. An idea came to my mind in my hollowness. I wanted to practice some kicks that I learned in taekwondo and Capoeira; some of them were impossiible for me to do. And Lo Behold, I have never kicked better even after 12 years of martial arts. There were no blockages, no pains, nothing. And this nothingness was from the emptiness. Suddenly I wasnt unhappy of being hollow. Actually I love the feeling. Another brilliant thing that this emptiness has done is that it is balancing my senses - so nothinng extreme and lesser attachments, may it be food, lust, relationships. Initially it was disconcerting but I see the higher truth in it.

14/4/08

Its been a while since I wrote about my expeiences with the Fa. Actually, there has been huge movements in my practice and my tribulations that come along with the practice.

Ben left. I asked him to. He spent a month with me again in Delhi and was completely mesmerised with his determination, his perseverance and his effort. This man never slept. He would just write and draw non stop. Almost 20 hours a day. He never spoke, never disturbed, just wrote and sketched. But there was a difference this time with him. What he was revealing was unfathomable. I always thought I had a knack for understanding the non-understading. But what he was sharing with me, which I choose not to reveal here, was something that nevereven touched me. It flew over my head and omewhere i believe that i wasnt evn wanting to believe what he was talking about. I also saw and felt some darkness in what he was trying to share. Was it the darkness thatemerged out of what he was saying or was it the darkness shining out my clogged mind? I dont know. I tried convincing myself that it was the latter but the mre time I spent with him, the belief inclined towards the darkness arising out of him. I still give him the benefit of doubt. I sat with him one day at the dining table and vented. Vented and how? I lost it. I had never shouted at anyone like this before. I was shocked to see myself shouting at the top of my voice, the body trembling, while he sat and smiled. I was disgusted more with myself for not being able to comprehend a single thing. I voiced it to Ben and he said it was frustrating for him too for he was "waiting" for me. Waiting for what?
Anyway, I did ask him to leave for me to return to him if it was meant to be. I bought him a ticket and off he went hoping to connect with his spiritual wife who he had left a year or so back in Shillong. she didnt want him so He left from there too to go somewhere next to the bangladesh border. I honestly hope he finds what he is looking for.

Meanwhile, I was told by numerous people that I am becoming less trust worthy et all. Its a bit incomprehensible because truthfullness at a thought level is what I claim, I am practicing. But what seems to be emerging for others is the opposite. Every perception has an iota of truth in it so I have asked all these individuals, family and friends, to tell me where I seem to be faultering, however they havent been able to pin point anything. AND THAT doent make me happy becausr the truth in the perception still exists although covered. I have also been wavering with my Fa practice for some reason. I do the five exercises diligently and to the best of my abilities however Zhen-Shan-Ren is weakening for me. It is easy for me to blame the temptations that I am confronted with in delhi but NO. I have always believed that an external stimuli is never so huge that it will change your internals until you want them to change yourself. There was a period of 2 weeks where I wouldnt do my practice because i didnt want to. Didnt want to? Who am I to even talk about wants considering the fact that I seem to understand the maya of the needs. Its time to get back to the being, to the centre - of which you and I are a part.

More as I experience.....


Good energies :)

Vik